Mesmerising sunrises, still quietness and calming solitude
One morning, last week, I was up at 5am to make donuts. “Crazy” and “What are you thinking?” probably just crossed your mind. It certainly crossed my husband’s. But if you thought that was bad, I was also up over the weekend at 6 am to make more donuts! 6am! Not just one or two donuts either. Sixty. That is a lot of early morning donuts.
But, if you love what you do, is getting up at ungodly hours actually hard?
Why do we call them ungodly hours? That morning when I woke up at 4:45 in anticipation of my alarm going off, with little arms draped across me, I was filled with nothing but peace and expectation. I allowed myself a whole seven minutes extra in bed before gathering the strength to get up. My unconscious son, obviously with other ideas, rolls over and throws his arms over me. I gingerly slip out from underneath his arm taking care not to wake the beast and make my way downstairs where I was met with the most glorious early morning sun: purples, oranges, reds, a kaleidoscope of colour. Surely there’s nothing ungodly about this time of morning?
If you live in Scotland you know that at this time of year, the sun never dips too low beneath the horizon. As a result, the sun rises at 4:15 am – a blessing and a curse for sure – perfect for early morning baking, but a curse when you just want to sleep in until 7:00 and your 3-year-old doesn’t understand that the sun being up does not mean time to wake up. However, for this morning it was perfect.
I took my dough out of the fridge to let it come to room temperature and rise, made my tea and settled onto the couch to do an early morning Bible study. Glancing out of the window I see a clearly sleep-deprived father taking his baby on a 5:30 am walk. Nodding my head impressed, I say to myself, “well done, you,” and go back to reading.
There’s something about feeling like one of the few people who are actually awake and up that early. It’s almost like a secret club: a secret club of people who happened to figure out that early mornings are way better than late nights. Early mornings also have another great benefit; they bring mesmerising sunrises, still quietness and calming solitude. They bring moments of tranquillity before the storms of the day.
Lately, I’ve noticed the utter nonsense I crowd my mind and life with. Voices calling from every direction. Demanding my attention, my time. These demands can come from both the digital and physical world: emails, social media posts, news articles, children, husbands, work. All of them with a voice that feels like a megaphone. I often find it hard to filter out the noise, to focus on the important voices.
Facebook. Instagram. TV. People. Books. Podcasts.
But there is a voice there trying to speak out above the clutter. I often have moments where a particular theme will keep popping up in various situations that I could never have orchestrated. How could I have known that that podcast would talk about this thing? How could I have known that that person was going to speak about that thing? Do you ever have moments in your life when you sense a message being spoken to you? I do. I call that God, some people call it fate.
The biggest thing I am hearing right now: your mind is too cluttered.
I think that’s why I love early mornings and the moments of peace and calm. Just me. I long to feel calm and uncluttered, to give everything which is important to me proper time and energy. I want the chance to reflect, to organise, to declutter my inner self.
It can be so hard. Wanting to constantly check my phone. Discovering what others are doing, what challenges they are setting for themselves. I want to find that next challenge, the next thing to conquer. But really we need to take these moments of calm to become more of who we want to be within.
Sometimes it’s nice to just sit and let the donuts rise.
Dasha and J got married this past weekend! It was a beautiful ceremony in front of a few of their closest friends. It reminded me of their amazing engagement session on St. Cyrus Beach. Still one of my all time favourite sessions to date! If you would like to book your own session click here.