Why am I writing this post when tomorrow is the day that I will find out if I get to leave and join my family permanently or whether this state of limbo will continue? Accountability. My heart is about to burst at the seems with excitement over seeing my family and moving on to the next stage of life. I can't help but smile as I go through this day with expectant hope that tomorrow my prayers will be answered. But there's also this knowledge that tomorrow might not be the day that I hope it is.
Here are the two options of what could happen tomorrow:
1) I find out my visa is approved and that I've actually been given a great type than I was expecting and that the reason for my health care refund is because I have been granted this status based on the last 13 years of connection to the UK through school, visiting, family, my kids, my husband, jobs, university, marriage, family business, previous marriage visas, etc. That the refund is not a bad thing at all (despite it usually meaning a refusal) but only an indication that I've been approved for permanent residency. Which means that I'll be flying out Tuesday for good!
2) I find out that my visa has not been approved for financial or whatever reasons which means that I may be able to leave on Tuesday but I could be denied entry at the border because it could look like I am planning to travel over and stay for good. They might not believe that I'm planning on being a true visitor. This result would mean that I might not be able to travel over for another 6 months while I way for our financial situation to be more solidified and can apply again for a visa. I truly don't know what would happen in this outcome.
But here's my prayer: that I would 100% without a doubt get to go on Tuesday and that I would get to go for good. That is my heart's greatest desire. However, and this is where the accountability comes into play, if the outcome is not what I want, I want to remember that God is good and that there is a greater plan even if I cannot see it through my tears. So you can keep me accountable to that. Don't get me wrong, I will be devastated and so sad but I will not be angry with God, I will not question God's love for me and I will not despair.
So guys, there it is. My last update as I go through this process and as I await the final decision tomorrow that will affect my life going forward. Pray that my visa would be approved and I can be reunited with my family after ten weeks apart. And if you want to pray with me before tomorrow I'd love to meet up! "For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I with them." - Matthew 18:20
And pray for peace for my heart as I go through this day. Tomorrow I will be a nervous wreck waiting on the mail!!